Fear Factor Challenge: 12 Slices of Tomatoes

Hi.

what a sleepless sleep i got.. spent like 2 hours sleeping only.. was playin games since last night to 3am, den tried to slp but cannot.. until like 5 plus den can slp, n den woke up about 7 plus to prepare for sch.. by hook or by crook need to wake up, oh well..

lessons as per normal, 9am-5pm with breaks in between and early release. quite boring, one of da lesson i was like sittin infront of comp, cher testin clsmates for labwork, n im like just watching lord of the rings: return of the king movie on my ipod.. YEAH i put in on my ipod like 2 days ago.. heh.

btw the first break, me n MRC (Multi-racial clan) went to paya lebar post office there to eat at da food court.. guess what, i asked the aunty to replace tat 3 cucumbers with tomatoes, and she gave me 10 slices of tomatoes instead.. btw i ordered sweet n sour fish rice.

GUESS WAD, I ENDURED AND CONSUMED ALL 10 SLICES OF TOMATOES!!

me, being a veggie-hater, will continue pushing myself to make myself eat them and live a healthy life. i keep tinkin of tat as i eat the disgusting tomatoes.. even my frens who eat veggies will give up at like 3 slices of tomatoes.. AND I ATE 10. ders more below..

went home and bought whopper jr student meal at BK.. if u guys havent notice, tat includes VEGGIES, tat-sour-thingy AND 2 MORE SLICES OF TOMATOES! so total, i ate 12 FREAKING SLICES OF TOMATOES TODAY

TOMATO DAY FTW

den naz came by.. he just bought new mp3 n phone, zen donno-wad plus and N6260. den tat moment i found oso creative no originality.. ipod got podcast, they make zencast.. omg creative aint so creative after all.. overall da mp3 he bought is good, but was filled with unnecessary functions.. anyway it looks nice thou.

thats prolly da highlights of today, esp da I ATE 12 SLICES OF RED HOT TOMATOES AND WENT THROUGH IT. other den tat ders sumtink tat quite troubles me, sumtink between me and mom.. if ur reading this, help me out and vote for what u feel right.. see below.

I borrowed like 120 bucks from my mom last year during the upgrading of my computer, I already paid a tiny sum, which i dont tink has make it below 100 bucks.. den ytd me n mom were talkin bout it, and she mentioned tat she will "halal-kan" which means shes sayin tat i don need to pay her back.. mayb if ur me, u shld b happy, but im like "man of my word" kind of guy.. so i will gv u options and u choose wad is best.

What should I do?

a. Ignore her and continue paying her back
b. Accept her proposal.
c. In future, when I started working, I will pay her back
d. Do a sacrificing ritual on my cat for my mom as a token of appreciation

Call 1900-PAY-BACK and vote for your answer, calls are charged at $10 multiplied by zero. Or you can also write us the answer on the tagboard provided. Thank you for your support.

Tomato-Eater,
Lan-ato

Own up now, who passed Mr Cough to me?

heyo,

man im like so coughy today man.. i got up at 6am and had this painful cough.. ytd just itchy throat but tat has turn to a cough i have now.. this is my first time having such painful cough, which will leave me gasping for air while shutting my eyes tight tryin to make the pain go away.. it really hurts..

wen i got up tat mornin, i went to find the powerful cough medicine i had, i asked my mom n she tried to make story tat it hv been misplaced all. with constant questions she den told me tat last time she brought it wiv her since she gt cough.. haiz like tat oso wan to lie.. den we try to find da med n found it, but like spilled alot cus da bottle quite wet.. hmm, k ah honestly speakin i don like it wen ppl use my stuff without my permission, ESPECIALLY those tat are 2 b consumed.. im already upset wiv my cough and nw shes tryin to fool me.. pls, im 18.. aniwae i just took it n she said she'll buy a new one for me.. anyway tat bottle was already almost empty.

after takin tat strong cough mixture, i fell asleep.. yes its tat strong to put an insomniac like me, to sleep in 5 minutes time. anyway 12pm like tat naz came over my house.. he's going to meet a client tat day, wan to sell his psp just like how i sell my ipod mini and game last time.. he followed me and needless to say, he's learning from me. =D

so yeah we went on to hardwarezone and i help him get pics over his thread..aniwae he already hv interested customers smsing him bout da psp and games.. oh btw he wan to sell psp cus he wana get ipod mini.. haha, if only he bought mine last time, which was freakin cheap.. i sold it one guy for 130 bux, 6GB IPOD MINI okay?! haha quite despo last time.. da refurbished 4gb ipod mini cost 158, wad a good deal tat person made with me. =p

so yeah we played games n more games den 7 like tat we went out to bedok to meet this client.. first time i saw someone so fussy, checked for like 10 minutes and keep askin questions, i tink naz was a little annoyed but kept his cool.. after da sale, we went over to wheelock cus he wanna buy refurb ipod mini, but what a waster dey dont sell it there.. in fact they only sell it on9.. that sux cus need credit card for tat, which him n me do not have.

so uh back at my house, we watched sg vs malaysia match.. sg win on penalty. da last malaysian who take da penalty kick soooo the like me, low n slow.. haha he took me as role model i guess.

anyway tats bout it ah, he went hom bout 11pm like tat, i just finished watchin stephen chow chinese movie, funneh. ;) other den tat, yeah just this cough... its really painful, sometimes i spit to see if theres any blood.. so far no, haiz i've been a gd boy n avoidin stuff tat make me sick, but sumhow someone passed it to me.. mayb my sis since she havin cough.. and btw i just took my cough medicine, da strong one.. feel super giddy now..

oh and da cough was so irritatin tat i lost my voice now, u can only hear me wen i talk in a very low tone voice, higher den tat u will only hear wind.

Don't drink and game,
Lan

The crashing tides can't hide a guilty girl, with jealous hearts that starts with gloss and curls..

Woke up late today, cus of da sleepin pills i took quite late last nite to get myself asleep.. anyway sch starts at 11 n i woke up at 10.30, haha reached there ard 11.30 like tat.. lucky cher havent reali started teachin.. covered like 2 chaps i tink den we went for break, but todae i went wiv da multi-racial clan go outside eat.

me n leon, wiv sum others went to eat at LJS, and i ordered my fav grilled cajun chicken.. big mistake, it automatically left me with me 2 bucks ONLY in my wallet, haiya shld hv stayed in sch eat rice man.. i fgt bout da financial probs my family been having.. :/ so uh afta LJS den went back for another networking lesson.

i tink i catched up wiv da 2 weeks of lessons i missed, reason i said tat is cus i startin to see hw everitink made sense, yea sort of. =D anyway released early den went home, played my ff game as i wait for ayam to on9.. fr 5pm i wait den 10.30 finally came on. wa piang langgar tiang. meanwhile i was tokin wiv godzila n shortie.

dis ayam tok for 15 mins oni den go back to da chicken farm liao.. definitely not worth the wait, HAHA.. kidding... so uh and i now..

SICK... AHHH WHY DID I FELL SICK, I'VE BEEN A GOOD BOY N EAT VEGGIES YET I GOT SICK!!!

yes im quite annoyed.. havin sore throat now n no doubt tmr will b worser..haiya irritatin sia sick here sick der, i dowan like last time sick3 den miss lessons all.. hmm ok la i drank much plain water, hope got effect tmr..

tats all, see u guys ard! =D

The Sick,
Lan-eek

Held hostage by veggies

hey sry fer da long time nv update, didnt reali hv anything too interesting to talk bout.. well of course my life's interesting but apparently jus nt interesting enough to be interesting to those interested.. so with my own interests, i declare that my interesting life regarding something interesting is just not interesting enough.

Very interesting indeed.

anyway today i woke up pretty annoyed, either the construction or my new neighbour is busy hammering the walls or something.. cmon man its only 8am and they makin noises.. wow if i were to blog durin tat time, its gonna be full of vulgarities tat..

*stops to curse at inuyasha for ending so soon*

uh ya, where was i.. ah full of vulgarities tat my blog might even get deleted by em authorities, heh.. so uh i tried freakin damn hard to get back to slp n woke up 11.45, my class starts at 1pm so um yea kind of a rush.. did the basic thingies den i was bout 2 get my things and to my horror i found...

CAT VOMIT ON MY BAG

yeah u can imagine the look i have on my face durin tat time, i actually froze with a "what-am-i-gonna-do + oh-freaking-shit" look. da vomit is on da dining table, with my sch bag on its chair, so some of da vomit fell onto my bag, whats worse is tat my pocket money mom left on da table was oso covered in vomit, as with my wallet.. but lucky my wallet nv kena much since its da most impt to me rite nw..

so i wipe my wallet a little, and hv to forget bout my pocket money n sch bag.. went to my store and get a substitute fer my bag, my sec 2 sch bag.. hmm yea no choice but 2 come sch for dis time lookin like a sec sch boy.. so umm its a double-shoulder bag, not a sling back like i often use.

aniwae its my first time attending tat "3D Computer Graphics" lesson.. MY GOODNESS THEY HAVE BEEN MAKING 3D OBJECTS ALREADY.. yeah i missed much durin da last 2 weeks of absence.. i tried to catch up, we were doing a 3d rocket n sattelite, quite interesting ah.. but confusin since i know a little of it.. asked da cher regardin it n manage to pull it off.. mine ain't tat perfect but i guess tats gd enough for a first timer, and i yet to do my lab 1 work, tat was lab 2 jus nw..

me n leon went for a short break as soon as i pass up my work, ate rice wiv stuffs.. den go to YAR KA CANG lesson, digital media tech.. learn bout audio n video signals n cables.. umm ok ah its pretty straightforward n easy to understand, no maths involve fortunately. den afta tat went home.. tat lesson suppose to b 2 hours but we got through it in 30 minutes, how cool is tat? instead of 6, we released at 4.45

and i got home abt 5.30.. frens nt on9 at msn, so i went to play my final fantasy 12 game, den frens on9 oso didnt talked much.. pity those o-levels-ers, they sound so stressed up.. continue be strong guys..u hv my support, u noe who u are. =D

now for the ground-breaking news...

I ATE KFC's ORIENTAL CHICKEN SALAD MEAL!!!!!!!!!!!!! *continues puttin in more !*

yeah i bought it for supper, i wan to see how mmuch veggies my body can take.. so umm they hv dis sauce, or seasonin, tat goes wiv it.. taste quite nice.. i depend on it totally to make myself swallow the veggies.. they hv cabbage, lettuce, dis purple thingy, tomatoes, chicken, sometink like maggi mee and alot of veggies.. wads worse is tat they gv me chopsticks to eat it, HELL i donno hw to use them.. but tried my best to use dem, cept for da corns n small tomatoes, otherse i can grab wiv em sticks..

it was so overflowin with veggies tat i resort to tomato sauce, squeeze it every where i see a gap.. didnt really help.. so umm i ate bout 4/5 of da meal, cus i already feel too puke-able already, jus finished da chicken n lemonade n threw it away.. i still felt like puking but manage to overcome it till nw. den watched prison break (final ep?) n inuyasha..

so fatin smsed me regardin band, bout tmr syf rehearsal at concert hall.. wanted 2 call me regardin some stuffs.. i rejected, sry though.. i jus wanna lay low for the time being, let things shape out a lil bit.. u guys have fun tmr. =D

tats all i guess..

Later,
Lan

Concerto Delights 2 pics

Yenfi, Me, and Darrelle with the 2007 Percussion Section

Shazana & Azlan




















Azlan & Azillah (The Azies)

Out of the shell

Today's quite of a great dae uh.. umm k.

woke up 7.45 den quickly get ready for sch.. i reached sch about 9.10 den i go buy books, BIG MISTAKE.. anway i bought books liao den come to cls was like, 9.18 like tat.. AND THAT EFFING TEACHER MARKED ME LATE.. walao i bought books den aunty late, den i kena, wtf man this cher.. i talked to him he only smile. siao ting tong nb ping pong.

erm kay ah first cls wasnt tat bad, can catch a few stuffs here n der.. i didnt really come for the last 2 weeks so today like focus ah wad they teaching.. so um after first cls got 2 hrs break.. first hour we go eat at canteen, me and my mates, i ate rice wiv 3 hotdogs, 1 fish fillet, 2 nuggets.. wiv curry.. actually 2.60 but aunty give me discount 2.50.. haha have to make innocent face to get discount..

after tat, we all go opposite sch ah.. walao we all sitting there den got dogs come near den im like screamin here n der n doin stupid stuffs.. bladi hell stupid mamak go bring da dogs near us.. haha lucky nv come near me if nt i faint liao.. oh and anyway they all smokin xcept me n another.. i only smoke my inhaler, i mean sniff.. quite fun ah tok crap..

den go back for another "Yah Ka Cang" lesson, dis time abit practical.. we play this donno something about sound.. den talk at microphone den can make diff sound.. dracula voice oso can.. haha den tat cls very the boring la, teach awhile den release.. but we all stay inside cls tok2.. erm n den we meet old cher, mr wong cus i wanna pass the Band leave form to cover my absence for da last 2 weeks, attendin band practices..

den we all go damien lesson, halfway thru me n mates cabot awhile i go eat ice cream, den come back continue.. do bout wad entrepreneurship shit..blaa bla den release.. all go back canteen eat, i ate a hotdog bun, first time try.. quite nice.. HOT DOG NEGRO BEB.. haha. den ah afta tat go home liao.. while walkin wiv my mates, tats like my first time to really open up.. like really behavin like my true self... haha fun la laugh here laugh there den i kena tickle until shout here there.. sensitive man walao.

never really been so noisy with them, first time ah.. since last time i always hang out wiv my multi-racial clan, nw transfer for da time being to malay clan.. den go home take bus, den mrt, den take my legs, den go home.. tok2 with my buddies at msn, AND I GOT THE PICTURES I TOOK WITH THEM AT CONCERT. haha

I will post the recent pictures on the next post.

And today's someone bday, damn i was hoping for bday bash but tat person is a girl, hampeh.

Later,
Lan

Making it up, breaking it up, oh what do you care

Heyyyy,

got more den enuf rest fr last nite den i expected, hmm okay so i had dreams.. hell i don even know if i shld call them good or bad.. anyway, the dreams is like wen "we" still smses each other n chattin.. i rmb we're talkin related to maths subject, but i can hardly remember what its about.. so yea it was like in e past ah, sms chat bla bla bla.. so uh and i saw myself asking about hp in a handphone shop, i hv like 80 bux in my wallet tat time n i was lookin to trade in my hp for a new one..

i was window shopping n smsing den suddenly i woke up.. dis sounds frickin weird but i quickly took my hp desperately checking my inbox, like as if it happened in reality n im tryin 2 find the smses to reply to.. haha crazy.. well im quite disappointed thou wen i realised its jus a dream, since da smses in my hp fr her is still those "cold" type..hmm.. oh n by chance she smsed right after i woke up.. i tink i was still tinkin bout tat dream n replied as if we're stil gd frens.. with a =D at e end.. heh azlan azlannn..

hmm k la, even thou its a nice dream or wad but if will make me disappointed wen i wake up, i prefer not to hv any dreams at all.. i just want to put away my hopes n come back 2 the old me.. time fer me to accept n jus fix that "rewind" button in my mind..

That dream would have been real if none of the conflicts existed.

so uh i was talkin wiv my ex bandmates, seri n yenfi.. talk crap la mostly.. talk bout last nite concert n bla bla bla.. not related to topic oso can go in.. ah n my fav topic oso included: Nescafe! so quite long ah we talk, if im nt wrong like 3 hours? pretty sure ard there..haha

den ah today my ex-band instructor Miss Leong have her band, PhilWinds, performance at esplanade.. she givin me free ticket to go watch.. but i was like still tired fr ytd and gt sometink on so i called it off.. haiz yea i feel bad bout not going thou, grats to her anyway on how the concert went. =D

so uh like afternoon i go play football wiv my frens, at dome ah.. hmm its effing damn obvious i no form.. haha, kick anyhow, den cannot keep up with ball, den ball keep runnin away fr me.. walao i there like pest sia.. den my team lose, bcause of me i tink.. sucks to have me in ur team. :/

den go hom quite late, oh and i bought that erm.. wad ah... i tink it goes like "Cheesy BBQ Turkey-Bacon Chicken Whopper Meal" i tink like tat ah the name.. i know its very long.. I DIDNT MINUS THE VEGGIES AND TOMATOES WOOHOOO!!

so i went home, took a shower, and ate em all.. den i surf net awhile, den play winning eleven on my ps2...

HEY, these days i rarely touch my games man.. for the past few days i actually didnt even hold my ps2 controller or double click my game application on my desktop! those who know me, i know ur suprised ursef.. Me, who cant live a day without playing games, actually have no mood to play game.. reason is obvious, you know i know we know they know she know he know everyone know.. well umm partially..

k, so tmr i will b returnin to lessons as per normal, no more leaves, and full concentration ahead.. i will no doubt ask alot of questions in class, so be prepared my mates.. muahaha

Oh and i wrote a poem just now.. not really for bloggin purposes so i will keep it silent for now. =D

See you guys (especially my classmates),
Lan

So it's done..

hello all..

ahhhh so tired, can feel my legs shiverin from the inside, uh n aching abit i guess.. k so..

today woke up like umm 10 plus ah.. den i go shower bla bla n prepare my tinks for concert later on.. so umm, reached there liao den sit there nothin much to do laa... so uh yenfi came den all da band members were given McChicken as a lunch.. bear in mind guys, i ate it WITH VEGGIES.. hmm okay i tink im gettin used to it.. good thing.

so bla bla skip skip, we all in the bus goin there liao, i sat there n like very the boring.. just sing here sing there.. ders actually so many thoughts on my mind but i promised someone before i wont let this affect my performance.. so we reached there n get ready for the final rehearsal..

ok ah its fine n fun.. me n yenfi like keep playin ard lor.. hmm ya.. n im tryin to put away my problems too.. haiz pretty hard la.. tats y im like quiet just now..hmm..

den came da real thing. yeah all went well, den hor i saw someone laughin at me playin tat indian-like instrument thingy.. my head all moving ah, like real indian like tat.. haha so umm den Encore we all play mamma mia again.. this time i play the drum set, like hw i did wen my batch played it long long ago.. and it went OKAY. brings me back memories.

so uh anyway durin da interval, azillah n shazana invite me for photo taking session.. haha damn i feel like so superstar-ish, summore wiv tat formal suit.. roffle..

DEN after da performance, i meet my old juniors, wee teck n wilson.. walao long time nv see wilson.. okay la his apperance got change but his damn attitude still the same.. wtf lol..

wen going back in the bus, tats wen i just let my long-trapped thoughts run through my mind n umm, depressed for a lil while... hmm kay ders one happenin in tat bus wich umm prolly made it worser.. i cant describe how i feel tat time, its like confused, distracted, frustated.. and, heartbreaking.

hmm so reached sch liao we all unload da instruments n put it back in da sch.. den i got a short talk wiv my section.. maybe my last talk with them for quite sometime, or maybe even forever, who knows.. i tink i got too emotional ah, haiz until my tears oso can come out.. walao feel like wad sia so old still can like this..hmm..

anyway, i didn't said enough.. theres so much i wanted to say, so much more.. but everyone is rushing and i keep forgetting wad i wan to say.. so let dem off ah..hmm den i tried to settle tat conflict wiv "her", she doesnt wan to like i presumed.. so ya, i didnt manage to clear everything up.. obviously, i'm seriously frustated bout this.. there goes my possible last chance. hmm.

so ya, den i went for a drink wiv fatin, faeez, wilson n yenfi.. jus tok2 la.. den police come all run away.. den i take bus home..

here i am at my comp seat, tinkin bout just now.. I failed to do wad i wanted to do, just probably another sleepless night for me..

Later.

I feel just so.... hurt.

im seriously upset.. im blamed for something i did not do and they never wanted to listen. all i wanted is to b happy and my friends with me, but tats just not gonna happen.. i'm having all the problems weighing down on me. ppl has start avoiding me for reasons unknown. and i dont even know why all this is happening.

I dont give a damn on my age and how i shld behave, im so fuckin stressed up tat even my tears can flow out without me knowing. its happening even now as i speak. i dont really have anyone to talk to, to share my problems with.. im facing all these on my own, and when i wan to solve it, the other party does not.

I'm helpless.

band concert is tomorrow. i promised amin tat i wont let these problems be my obstacles during the performance. I will hide whatever is affecting me, I will do and finish this the way it supposed to. i will do this for my percussion section, and the band, and my friends.

I have to get myself together, no matter how difficult it can be.

i realised each day i hoped tat things will go back as how it is in the past, when im still the cheerful and playful person everyone know.. but no, its not going to change anything. Things have happened, i will have to accept it. if i cant make the situation better den i'll live with it.

I never wanted problems, even if it's on sumone else. i never want to give ppl problems. I wanted to help but in the end they shut me up. i want to tell them how i feel but they shut their hearts. why they hate me, i might never know.

I don't care if you say im weak or immature. this is what i am. give me a chance and i will make it up to u.. all i ask is for u to believe me, n accept me as how u did in the past.

Took 3 sleeping pills, sry cant help it.

Regrets won't waste my life again.

heya,

whew, jus finish carefully sortin out da mallets n timpani files.. erm n ders sumtink wrong wiv one of da song's score, since sum parts no dynamics so i wrote it in.. anyway to begin..

last nite slept for more den 8 hrs i guess, fell aslp bout 4am den woke up like, hmm 1pm.. ya 1 hour more only haha.. so uh went on msn den play poker wiv yenfi again.. EVERYDAY PLAY POKER SIA THIS GUY walaowehh. haha but fun laaa.. bet on stupid2 things again wtf..

so uh bout 3 i went out for band prac.. erm todae nth much la, our tutor take us for sectionals, den we go photocopy our scores togethergether in one section.. oh i may hv not mention it but..

That's when I feel that im in a section which i knew several yrs ago, when we're all like one family, everyone walkin together.. hmm da feeling is good.. brings me bck memories. =D

so uh after photocopy liao i bought dem drinks, only a few ah.. last time my senior use to buy me drinks wen we go break, so im like "okay im a senior nw, uh ya buy drink go choose" like tat ahh.. hmm den we go sort out the scores, didnt reali managed to since im like so blur, donno hw can like tat.

aniwae we come back down to prac summore, esp da perc ensemble.. oh and my hand very very very pain.. i doubt they noe bout it but i enduring.. summore air con so cold, sum saw me shivering..roffle waffle =p

so uh yeah after band liao went home.. PLAY POKER AGAIN WITH YENFI.. serious sia he freakin god of gambler.. everitime lose to him.. haha.. p/s: remember, got one game got like 4 to 5 full house, bladi hell haha..

so ya den afta tat i chat2 wiv my fren, den i sort out da scores to make instrument files.. well so far no prob.. i'll see them tmr n we'll discuss more bout it..

OKAY i wanna eat my cup noodle WITH VEGGIES now.. see ya

P/S: HEY TODAY I NEVER PLAY PS2 OR PC GAME SIA, xcept poker.. haha amazing!

Later,
Lan

My friends say I should act my age, what's my age again?

hi.

today's a so-so day, gt bad gt ok tinks.. hmm.. lets start fr beginnin..

so woke up about 10 plus, den immediately go shower n bla3 to prepare for rehearsal later wiv da band.. *skip skip* so i reached there bout 12.15, den we hv to carry insts to the truck all.. quite tiresome ah cus i perspire quite alot.. den we all percs take same bus n i get them to all sit behind so can tok2..

but haiya a few gt personal problems so they nt reli in da mood to talk.. its ok la quite fun but very boring.. no offense but first time my sect is boring in a bus.. oh well.. so umm when reachin liao den i start making unnecessary noises.. haiya need to liven da place abit.. hmm ya laa den got dis one person say i very noisy wohhhh.. =p

so umm reached liao den we at da stage ah, got microphone der den i go disturb nathan.. haha go to da mic den "NGGEEOOOWWWW NGEOWWWWW". OH YA got one thing very the funny la, we going to take out perc instruments.. den bladi hell who kentot, everyone suddenly reverse sia wan to run away from the air pollution..haha wtf sia lucky i got my vicks inhaler.. nb the smell is soo undescriceable-ish stinky. :/

so ya we take out da perc insts den start arrangin.. den we did our rehearsal.. all okay.. den perc ensemble.. to make it short, i destroyed it from my point of view.. well.. firstly i didnt manage to get da crowd to do wad i wan, secondly i didnt manage to get da perc to play softer yet faster.. and thirdly, i made a effin fool outta myself.. even while we were doin tat thing our instructor cut us short and tell me it's a waste of time.. well he phrases it differently but i know full well wad he's trying to say. so i just finish tat ensemble fast..

so ya.. i was pissed, in fact very pissed. some was like "azlan r u ok?". yes guys i appreciate u askin me tat, im nt angry wiv u guys.. n i don wan to point fingers at ppl sayin its their fault or wadever crap. Again, i'm really sorry guys.. when i made a fool out of myself, i made a fool out of the percussion. and i feel effin bad for tat..

im so fucked up.

so ya im depressed for some time.. den da rehearsal continues n i try to make myself enjoy it, for da percs sake n e band.. so when i was behind da scenes tat time, i can hear u guys did improve alot.. my warnings n lectures seems nt to hv fallen on deaf ears after all.. hey im happy for u guys, honestly =D

so 2 keep it short, we den went back in da sch bus.. perc sit behind again n we all was like noisy2 talkin crap all.. i go play2 wiv dem until i accidentally unleash my SUPAH-CHILDISH side of me.. yea somehow i feel as if im sooooo un-18.. even sec 2 juniors bully me tickle me here n der make me shout like michael jackson many times.. o.O

so yeah den wen reached sch liao n moved back inst.. i met da perc sect outside, tot wanna go photocopy scores 2gether, but skali some nv bring back files.. :/ haiz wad to do if dey dowan. den uh i went home wiv faeez same bus, strange y we took it first rather den hazirah who always the first to went home.

so ya i hv been tinkin ah bout hw childish i was in da bus goin home.. cant help but to feel bad, heck i donno y but its like, embarassing? heck im playful but again i can b serious wen theres a need.. so don go ard describing me as immature.. just take me as uh, barney the dinosaur?

anyway i played poker again wiv yenfi online.. haha we bet stupid things all.. who lose marry mrs ng la wad la. HAHA yaya its crap but fun laa.. ;)

SO today my best fren's bdae, happeh bdae to u NAZ! haha 19 yr old liao , nx yr bcome 20 cent face.. GOOD for u haha..

OH AND I FORGOT TO MENTION: just now i go buy zinger with cheese + VEGGIES and COLESLAW.. hurray i managed to eat em all =D k guys cya

What's my age again?,
Lan

Please don't say I never cared bout others. I do and I hate to give you problems, I hate to see you upset. But some problems can not be avoided.

hello.

regarding the title, I will tell more bout it later. so today i went to band, got quite abit of trouble since this week im going to miss much if nv go sch.. but well, i sacrificed for band.. nah i don expect applause wadsoever, i care for my section and i wan them to be ready for the concert.

so today I tried to get some add ins for the pieces since im nt playin anything.. okay la didnt add in much just off beats, on beats n sumtimes quaver beats.. nothin too fancy, nothin too simple.. well tats quite bout it for todaes prac, oh and i told our conductor regardin the add in for da ensemble, my part in talkin to da audience.. tmr rehearsal he sae go do it, if i hv too little audience den i donno if i can make it happen.. unless the concert itself.. s2bme

den got home.. i was on msn chattin wiv my band mates nadiah n yenfi.. just talkin crap ah mostly.. i was tokin bout braces n all wiv them den got to noe she took off hers liao.. den "her" name came out.. den they like talkin bout we wear braces n somehow anyhow sae i like "her". den even go tag at her blog bout it.. hmm, again nadiah im nt angry at u since u know nothin n tot it will b funny.. im just worried wad is gonna happen next.. seriously im frustated.

If "you" don believe what i said bout me never mentioned bout tat stuff, then I will send you my chat log between me n nadiah. if tat wont make u believe me, i donno wad will..

I care bout wad others feel, I care bout their problems especially if it has to do with me. don describe me as if i only care bout myself. dis already happened once, and i noe full well how u reacted. now it happened again n prolly much worser. don tink ur sufferin from tat alone, i am too. mayb much worse. if ders things on ur mind, den talk to me. i will make time to listen, with an open mind.


again, if u wan proof den i'll send u tat chat log, see it and judge it urself.


That peace was short-lived
That topic is unavoidable
If only you will listen and believe
I (and you) won't feel so terrible

That's what I'm feeling now
It's hard to express how.




Lan

Omnivore Evolution Chapter 2: Veggies From KFC

Heeyoooooo

Uh kay today had one stupid dream.. umm i accidentally woke up 5 am.. den i slp back i dream I was late for my Sports n Wellness lesson den da cher was punishing me to run, den when i tying my shoe laces I saw my frens Hui An and Fang Liang oso getting punish.. haha donno y la their face come out, den my class advisor mr wong face oso there lookin at me.

so uh to cut it short, i woke up bout 7.45 den go toilet liao to get rdy for school. Man im shivering so much sey, can u imagine i wearing shirt n track pants, fan not on, window closed, but still woke up shivering? crazy as it may sounds but it happen :/

so uh den about 8.30am i went out for sch, mrt abit crowded, got idiots raising their arms high too and talking so loudly, but not a problem since i hv my iPod and inhaler =D

reached liao den i first time see my teacher, Digital Media Design i think is the module he teaching.. so umm he look nerdy, claim to be strict, well his rules is strict, but he's teaching.... makes me go o.O

he teach asif he mumbling, his smile makes me laugh, and his jokes i cant get it. haha ya i know im sooo bad but again im sooo honest wad to do.. erm kay la den we got break, went outside go eat macdonalds, i ate sausage mcmuffin with egg meal, den go donno wad cafe i drink iced milo dinosaur.. i got milo stuck all over my braces seh tat time..haha paiseh..

den come back sch for nx lesson, same teacher same module but actually do practical, since da equipments not there den we did theory only..BORING.. learn bout SCSI, PCI and those things i learn last yr.. OH YA did i mention this semester book set costs 23 bucks? man so ex. :/

so afta tat lesson actually got one more but i went home, donno la tat time like really no mood man, n tat lesson i skip is nt those core module one, haha lucky. kay when i going home something funny happen, make me laugh seh..

wen i reach simei via mrt, raining liao, i pass by eastpoint going to cross the road to my house but is raining heavily.. so i walk a longer way; via the new houses den cross road to the old houses wher my house is located.. as i was walkin at da new houses site, i saw changkat changi students ah ard there lepak2 waitin for rain to stop.. den i move on forward, dis site like quiet liao, den i walk somemore, guess wad i saw

a girl n SHORT-PANTS boy hugging each other leanin on wall.. my goodness LOWER SEC seh hug2 liao wtf.. so umm da gal noticed me den they broke da hug n they quickly walk off, can see they damn paiseh.. eh tat moment i like want to say "alahh carry on hugging laa.. i noe its cold so u need each other body heat" =p but seriously la their expression and actions is priceless, i laughed awhile seh.. soft laugh laaa..

den went home, go msn go frenster go stalk ppl.. umm really boring la nothin much to do... den my fren invite me play msn game, play POKER.. wow now i addicted leh, just now just played again.. haha. so umm den ard 9 plus i went out to buy food.. i actually wanna buy zinger but no more, so bought O.R Chicken Fillet meal drink change to mountain dew and whip potato change to COLESLAW. man i never change things to coleslaw before, my first time.

AND TAT BURGER HAVE VEGGIES IN IT.. so i went home and eat coles law den eat the fillet burger WITH THE VEGGIES.. its very yucky yucky like wan to vomit.. but woo hoo I survive, my will is strong..haha..

k laa tats the highlights for today..

Oh and not to mention, I'm quite very happy today. well lets just say something nice happened.

and that's personal for now. ;)

See Ya,
Lan

I am not emo, don't get me wrong

okayyyyyyy....hmm.

today very the boring day.. uhuh i was on msn doing nothin den my fren yenfi invite me to a msn game, so sudden seh nv sae hello all.. so bla bla play donno wad game, den another fren oso invite me msn game.. see lah got many frens oso trouble some seh. =p so ya im playin 2 games wiv 2 frens at one time, haha hard to focus

den at night time i watch day after tmr on ch 5, my cousin came but he play my ps2 alone since i outside watchin tv.. den finis da show liao i went back to my room and had one match with him.. i chelsea he arsenal, we play winning 11 =D quite fun lah got nice goals all, end up scoreline 10-8 haha. WALAO tough fight man, seriously..

play only one match den suey he kena go home liao, his sister call him to meet up back at hospital where he came from, visitin his grandpa, not my side one.. so uh other den tat i hv been chattin wiv my fren ah regardin my probs.. i don reli hv frens tat cares bout my prob n gv me a listenin ear, lucky got one or else i end up talkin to myself n warded into mental hosp. :/

ya soo.. i have regrets, i hv confusion, n i hv frustation.. im like, dont know wad to tink bout, dono wad to do n such.. how i wish i can talk things out n settle everitink.. things like these makes my sleepless nights worse..

People doesn't know how much I regret
When I resisted from expressing myself fully
That very opportunity was gone
But when can I move on?

The Dark Side clouds everything

hmm okok today got a few bad tinks happened ah...

firstly, sleeping. i lied down at ard 2am, but i kept thinkin bout "stuffs" till i finally got asleep in about 5am.. den got band at 8.30am.. but SUWEY LAH i accidentally woke up about 7am cus keep shivering..so frickin cold...so yeah, 2 hours of slp.. haiya...

okay den i got on msn den tok2 wiv my fren..at about 9 den i left home wiv my sticks.. met my ex-senior which is da band ex ex ex ex ex senior, cus he wan to buy ticket for the concert.. see i also help u all get buyer okay.. so umm we find aaron n got our tixs, i bought one for wee teck too.. den ex senior bought liao i sent him home.. not really sent la just walk outside gate.

so bla bla i come back den gt warmups den we all go break.. den one of my jr came up to me n told me sometink tat is totally out of place n shock me for quite some time.. suddenly come up to me and "*This message is Spoiler Free, sorry for the inconvenience caused*" and i have this "WTF?" popping above my head. well it just made me more confused then clearing things up

so they eat eat eat i drink drink drink den we go back do combine.. i cant help much la since its combine mah, only da ensemble i play.. but i skip tat part where i hv to come in for the *This post is Spoiler Free, for more see above*.

den i went outside the hall to hear how they sounded from afar.. hmm overall okay ah.. abit sad da music totally dominate da percs, my sect. cant reali hear wad they playin.. so after band i talked to them bout hw they sounded n bla bla bla.. den they go home den me fatin n faeez go tampines mart eat there talk talk talk bla bla bla den we go see wee teck to pass da ticket..

ZOMG HE CHANGED ALOT MAN


anyway we then got back home..

so uh, now im having serious thots regardin the perc ensemble.. im in a dilemma to continue my plan or put it away.. i have to decide fast, it's just days away.. its prolly my last performance wiv em.. i wanted to make it grand, but i need to have confidence tat i wont make a fool outta myself..

thou my section's diff opinions is like makin me more confoosed..

kay, actually i hv other things in my mind too.. problems maybe.. so like, my mind is like forest fire u know.. haze everywhere cant see wad im exactly thinking.. that sucky ya it does.

Well I do hope my mood will get better..

My mind is like a forest fire,
It's hurting me and I can't find my way out.


Lan

I need direction to perfection no no no no you gotta help me out..

mmmm been raining quite a lot recently..so cold weather.. geez im shiverin even as i type now.. so if go typo u noe y ahh..

actually todae i dont hv leave for my sch lesson, but my mate call me up tellin me got no lessons, only come mark attendance.. heck im oredi otw to my sec sch band prac at tat time..heh.. i wan to wear my sweater cus so cold seh, but later ppl say i nv bathe la wear same sweater..zzz..end up wearin my long sleeve germany shirt.

so umm reach band liao, dey doin drills.. den i saw my perc junior, but no longer plays for e band.. fgt liao tok bout wad, den bla bla dey finish drills den went down take inst..

so i told em to get the perc ensemble "toys" ready to prac.. but sad la instructor came early den we need to go combine wiv da band, so must bring back in da inst.. gt one person ask me if im okay anot, haha mayb she notice my frustated-ness.. heh

so combine awhile den instructor gone liao, so i got up da perc section for the ensemble.. go up to canteen prac awhile.. den wen during fixing one of da instrument, im using this donno-wad-u-call thing to loosen the screws, but the sharp part accidentally snap off some of my skin on my middle finger.. play tat inst already hand pain liao, now got injury somemore..wtf.

so prac awhile only la den kena go back down again to sac, prac there.. den i intro them my plan for the ensemble, to make it livelier n perhaps more entertaining.. hmm okay la quite good for first time tryin.. i tink the problem lies in me instead, either i make it work or i make a fool outta myself. need to tok to da audience n get em dancing to da music.

(To avoid unnecessary spoilers, we will advise you to come to our concert and know what you're gonna dance to.)

so yeah, i must have confidence to make it work.. i never talk to a big audience before, a challenge for me.

SOMEMORE IM GONNA TALK ALONE


umm okay, so my junior last time play band oso came to see2.. haha fun laa long time no see him den play2 like small kids...good times.. i tot i didnt change, he also didnt change much...heh..

so band finish we both go drink den talk2 at bus stop.. bla bla bla

den go home. nth much la to do now..

I just can't take this, I swear I told you the truth,
Lan

I can't sleep..thoughts outweighs my already tired mind

*Edited to promote peace treaty*

McChicken, vote veggies or allergies.

heya.

I woke up it was seven,
Waited till eleven
Get my wafflecrisp cereal
Still weather rains denial

Sweater and a hood
God knows I doubt my mood
I can't blame my soft-heart
Confusion struggles so hard

Went for my sec sch band prac again, already applied for leave with my class advisor for tat. Pretty much happened, da perc tutor gave me an agogo bell part to play, same as my junior. I'm pretty sure mine was damaged since im pretty sure i heard it fr my ex-senior who im pretty sure mentioned tat she's pretty sure it was pretty damaged for sure.

pretty sure ur confused for a second =p

well tat agogo bell sounds kinda awful but wth just play, cant really dance wiv tat tink so its pretty plain.. but den da tutor decide to swap my place wiv someone else, which i end up playin tat "indian-music-kind-of-instrument-which-i-forgot-the-name". pretty fun, can shake my head here n there n everiwhere.. also recommend to add in a shout to go along wiv da perc ensemble to make it more lively.,,,OI!

so play n play till hand pain, red all over.. was fricking damn cold too..i hv skin sensitive to cold temperature, kena abit aircon can shiver liao.. lucky i brought my sweater..well lucky it rained, blessings in disguise.

prac n prac den i hv a tok wiv e ex sect leader for perc, we had kinda same views on our section.. dis views is wad made me come back, they need all the guidance they can get..

so after band i hv a chat awhile wiv nathan, those kind of conversation when u seldom meet each other.. after tat i went to meet my besties go lepak at afghanistan restaurant.. strange they drink kopi n i was drinkin big gulp..zzzz opposite seh..then we went to macdonalds, i ate

MCCHICKEN WITH VEGGIES for the first time.. told u bfore i wanna start eatin em so i did..taste awful, each bite made me want to vomit all of it out.. but my will is strong. =D

so we went back ard 10pm ah, just finished watchin prison break n nw im typin at my blog..

if u don get my poem above its ok, its just my feelings on it..

They said i should act my age and solve problems on my own.

They said alot of things.


But what if that problem require another party to agree to wad i say?
I know I did my part.
I spoke honesty.

Okayyyyy....

Okay I've changed my skin..


so um gonna make my first official blog entry.. nth much so i just keep it short and simple


PG-rated


Today woke up abt 8, receive an sms by my class advisor, WongSK (ya he owns SK jewellery =p), that classes has been cancelled today. so no need come to school.. i wish i can shout "yAY NO SKEWL!" but heck its gonna be alot more boring todae..

well quite good la todae no nid go sch, don even noe if i can concentrate with probs breathing down my neck..

blessings in disguise?

probably..


erm k la so i talk2 wiv my fren on msn, den gt a little sms conversation.. hmm i wake up at 8 actually want to go BK buy my croissanwich meal, walao tok2 until 11.15am, summore havent brush teeth all.. so umm i go brush teeth den tear my BK coupon (save money mah) and make my way down simei road to BK avenue, get the Rendang double meal..

for the first time I actually ate that veggie that come with it, that roundy thingy donno wad its call..

Ya i wan to start eating veggies, need to take care of my skin laa... will keep tryin...hope so.. tat time i ate medium coleslaw and vomited an hour later..sheesh veggies allergy. :/


SO after i eat, i slp n slp and nv get to dream anything nice. wake up tok2 wiv my fren over msn again, tok crap laa.. den here i am now editing my blog

and posting this.

So ya, there goes my first official blog post..

Later!

I'm desperate for links of my friends blogs... so if u noe me n u pass by here, leave a link to your blog so i can link u...

Later.

kay....

Okay those who used to visit my last time the blog should be very familiar with this skin, heck it's the only skin i still kept :/

Soo umm, I won't be ready soon.. mayb afta i start havin a betta skin den i'll start postin crap, BUT i can go back on my word this time. so uh, have fun waitin for me to update.

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