An optimist always keeps their pessimist side in his heart

Sometimes,

You wish you know exactly what the person talking to you, thinks about you.
You wish that when she denies all your suspicions, she's keeping it for a suprise.
You wish Matt Parker of Heroes will sit beside you, and whispers to you what the girl thinks about every statements you make.

You wish her bullshits are indeed, bullshits.
You wish when you said something special, she'll see you as special.
You wish she trusts you in not just repairing her life, but brighten her every day life.
You wish when you say something nice, she'll believe its genuine no matter how many has faked her into it.

You wish when you flirt with her, she'll stop that stereotype that guys flirt with all the girls,
You wish that whenever you sing, she'll start singing along even when she don't even know the first line of the lyrics.
You wish that whenever you joke, she knows it actually meant "I like you", and you felt good joking all the time cause you indirectly confessed to her each time and she smiles.

You wish that she somehow understands why you are waiting, no matter how tired, no matter what our moods, no matter how short it will be.
You wish she knew that it'll make our day.


I wish,

I have a cold, strong heart.

Rather than this soft one always filling my life with false hopes.


You read it right,
This is yet another emotions-filled post.

Fuck me hard, eh life?
Lan