Chance

Dear Natalie,


I turned to look at you,
Coming to us with another guy tagging,
There was no arrows of cupid hitting me,
Love at first sight was plain bullshit then

You weren't anything special,
You weren't anyone I would have wanted to know,
With MSNs exchanged due to our locations,
Lustful hearts exchanged their blows

Heading into work with my phone ringing,
Our first conversation pinches me in amazement,
None I knew could have match my mind so often,
A sense of perfection, a taste of chemistry

Never had I expected, my barrier weakens for you,
That light you showed within, had me staying,
Someone whom my efforts was never regretted,
Feel my warmth, while I shine on you

I've traveled through the land that rained spears,
Splintering trust, stabbing emotions,
Though somehow I reached the end with unbroken will,
A dream I pursue, Reality shall make it true

I've stood through that driving rain,
Eagerly waiting for that light to shine me through,
There's nothing more in me, you've yet to know,
This test you've completed, you had never turned back

With faith,
Will you accept my every sides I've showed?

With trust,
Will you listen to my will of rebuilding it into perfection?

With loyalty,
Will you put the freedom I will give into good use?

With honesty,
Will you believe it'll solve your deepest lies?


With Love,
Will you accept this risk,
Possibly losing someone for another,

And let me light your heart into a life everyone had been struggling to live?


May the Sun smiles on the stars that sparkles in their darkest hour.


I love you,
Lanny

Melfraps Unofficial Photoshoot

Warm greetings to all SLN-readers.

I'm back,

In black.




So yes,
Prior the our most major gig ever at Woodlands this countdown,
Melfraps has decided to hold a photoshoot in order to,

Well,
To be proud of how we look like in 2009.

Sorry can't think of better excuses.

Anyway we had to leave Mr Drummer out,
I mean people hardly see the drummer anyway during gigs.

I know,
Another stupid excuse.

So here goes.



Interviewing our bassist and his soulmate on "marriage"




Although its isn't the answer we're looking for, they prefer "shotgun marriage"





We are also known as the Mafias who kidnaps anyone not wearing black





Although sometimes mishaps do happen,





Happy kids, Happy times





Heh.




Wan is gay.




He still is.




I'm bringing back sexy legs




And Wandergay is bringing sexy gay back




I'm white.




As white as I can be!




I got diamond in between my legs, my legs, my legs




Rock never die even when I'm dead




I can't resist the camera,




Everybody loves Wan.




We boys loves to get behind girls, if ya know what I'm saying,




Waterboy photo shoot.




HEHHHHH!




Toyol Cowboy.




The best example of Muker-tak-perlu,




S-Jibeng in Melfraps,




Our new drumer is a cowgirl.




The odd one out will always be an odd one out.




Looking at the sky, wearing black.




I CAN'T COMMENT AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!




Uh. Heh. AHAHA. FUH. Ok I need to control myself.




Alien vs Predator.




That's pretty much all.

To those who is interested for the countdown gig,
Do visit JamIt2010 Site



The day's coming nearer,
Lan

If you can't hold on, Hold on

Thank you,
For coming back when I needed someone the most.

I felt bad when you came back to Singapore and I totally had no clue about it,
If not I would have been there at the airport waiting,
Holding a paper that states your name in front of the arrival hall.

It was great to finally had a chance,
Catching up things with you,
And congrats again for your overseas degree.

:)

Now as to keep my word on whatever I told you earlier.
















Now that's officially the longest chat log I've posted,
Lan

Just a little patience

It's just conversation like this,
That makes you think who you used to be,
Who you're supposed to be,

And who you actually are.

These changes ain't changing me,
The gold-hearted boy I used to be.


Welcome home,

Mr Brightside.

Realization

May 2009,
Happy and free,
With no one else around.

Just you, me, and no complications.


I've waited patiently for that opportunity,
That opportunity to come back to the moment,
Where both of us can make any stupid crap into topics in MSN,
Prolonging conversations doesn't even need thinking,
When going out was the best way to spend your day with so much joy.

I guessed I screwed everything up,
Screwed the hopes, screwed the opportunities,
Screwed the emotions,
And I see that now.

I was too desperate.

Too desperate when an opportunity present itself,
Too desperate that I ended up forcing you into shits,
Too desperate that I got paranoid over the littlest of things.

I made a grave mistake,
Instead of perfecting myself on how I was back then,
I talked about others,
I talked too much about others and I ended pissing you off again and again.

I realised all this too late,
I have been pushing all the blame on you,
I've pushed all the pressure on you,
I always think that I'm right,

But no,
That thought was a grave mistake itself.

I bombard your soul with questions after questions,
I got annoyed when I don't get an answer,
I got paranoid when I get an answer.

You were right about me,
I was trying too hard,

I was too desperate.

I just want to throw my ego away,
I've only realised all these tonight,
I was too unfair to you,
Yet I can still proclaimed myself being your saviour.

I'm finally back to my senses,
I really am.

And now,
I beg for your forgiveness,
I deeply apologise for whatever I''ve done all these while since November,
I finally understand what you meant when you said you're suffocating because of me.

Because I pushed everything to you.

I'm sorry.
I really am.
I apologised thousand of times,

But this,
Is my most important apology to you.

I give you my word,
This will be the turning point for me.
Maybe for you too.

Forgive me,
For whatever I've done.

I've been blinded by my own mind all these while.

Please sunshine,
Forgive me,

For this realization will greatly help me out,
Give me a chance to feel myself again.

For the Lan you knew on Mayday,
I seek your forgiveness.

Oh and,

I miss you.

Thank you God for opening my eyes,
Lan

I Love You

I love you and no matter how much i try,
I just cant leave you.
No matter how many problems you gave me,
When sometimes you even hung up on me.

I kept craving to have you in front of me.

I just have this desire to touch you everywhere,
And the more you felt me,
The more you want it in you.

And I just can't resist putting it in you,

Because I wanted more.

Lets get to my room together again,
I'll make you feel beautiful.

I love you,

My new handphone.

Now let me put it in you,
Charge you to full batt,
And I can continue touching you later.


Wait,

Did I just caught YOU fantasizing?

I'm touching you again in my uniform,
Lan

Something for you

[5.00 - 5.23]

I've been walking these streets at night,
Just trying to get it right,
It's hard to see with so many around,
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd

And the streets don't change but maybe the name,
I ain't got time for the game,

'Cause I need you.


Just a little patience,
Lan

I'm so much older than I can take.

Photo of 2006. (Thus the long hair duh)


So it was World AIDS day two days ago,
On the first day of the last month.

In other words,
My Birthday.

Now before I got on to my special birthday entry.





So yes,
Our most major performance yet.

So if you don't have any plans yet for countdown this year,
Do come down for this event with your loved ones.

Ticket price and event details are located HERE

Woofy,
You are EXPECTED to come,
Stay,
Until the fireworks are done.

Because I'm about to give you my own new year fireworks.

To everybody else,

Event: Jam It 2010 Countdown Party
Date: 31 December 2009
Time: 7:30pm – 12:30am (Performances will start at 8pm)
Venue: Field beside Woodlands Civic Centre

Come and witness Singapore's very own glam rock band on stage.

Muahs.


OKAY BIRTHDAY ENTRY NEXT!


From twenty to twenty-one,
Only a number different but a whole fuckload of major changes happened in my life.

And most importantly,
I'm beginning to understand,
How my mind works and the positives it brings to my daily life.


From the most emotional of days,




To the happiest moment of my life,




These, I'll definitely treasure till the day I go black and white in the papers.




From Melfraps being just a simple band who occasionally hangs out at Starbucks and got their name,




To the day we played our own songs and people remember our name.




And of course,

From one cat,




To three feline partnas,




And of course,
I found someone who exceeds all my expectations in its similarity to me.

An adventure like none other.

The birth of great chemistry.

Please meet,

My darling.




Fuck,
I tried to control myself.

But fuck,

I fucking laughed.

So yeah anyway.

1st December 2009 was the best birthday celebration I had yet.

The suprise was the worst though,
It's like an elven arrow piercing straight through my heart without me knowing.

Still,
That arrow somehow became one with my blood and slips through into my heart.

Shit.

Fuck myself for being sucha Casanova here.

Anyway woofy decides to be funny and played this prank,
When I decided to just give up and go to sleep,
A hand appeared at my window and I could have sworn I heard pesticide spraying.

"Psst psst."

I got up and turned my head,
Facing the opened window with wind blowing on my face,
Shutting my eyes to avoid the poisonous gas from reaching me.

I peeked.




It was a hand.

It was a fucking hand.

I walked to the window,
Peeking outside slightly angered by the fact someone actually disturbed me from sleeping.

I saw a face,

I SAW A FUCKING MOLE!




Anyway dear woofy gave me a small cute cake,
While I got myself ready to go on a birthday celebration I have been waiting for all these years;

With a loved one.

I donned on blue,
Got down,
Woofy wore blue,

The sky is blue.

And out of the blue,
We got on the train as she leads me to my next birthday suprise.

Bloody ass.




Fast forwarding the storyline,
We reached some place I've never been,

And there you go,
In a place where I've never been and wants to be in.

A karaoke lounge.

A FUCKING KARAOKE LOUNGE.

TWO FUCKING VOCALISTS IN A FUCKING KARAOKE LUNGE.

Anyway the receptionist was pretty hot,
But fuck that.

Three hours of pure singing to Aqua songs was sizzling hot.

Well yeah,
Woofy wanted to bring me to a restaurant but somehow it grew legs,
And ran away before we got to it.




That's okay darling,
All hope is not lost.

Muah.

So to cut this story short and have my sleep long,
Many things kinda happened on the day,
But I prefer keeping it to myself.

Now,
I have more things to do.

So I might not be updating for quite awhile.

Till the next entry with New Year Resolutions and Evolutions.

Portuguese kisses to all my readers.




For I'm too scared to say "I need you",
Lan