All these things that I've done

A New Year, A New Life

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A decision that shocked everyone,
An answer that broke hearts,
Tears of the new year spills in hurt,
I understand now, it was too difficult

We don't have to look back now,
Blessings has always come as a disguise,
That doesn't mean promises are to be broken,
But believe me, they will only strengthen

White flower clipped on a crumpled paper,
That three letters I had been believing was the answer,
Two named strings left untied in your possession,
This white blazer, wet with emotions

Let us hold our heads up high now,
We've gotten through times of difficulties,
A new year, a new life to begin,
Will you let us forgive each other's sins?

Be strong now while time heal all these wounds,
Thankful I am, for putting me through this test,
Put your hands into mine, hammering out these dents,

We'll continue pursuing our dreams to the fullest extent.

- Lan :)


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With regards to Melfraps' 5th and most major performance,
In the event JamIt2010 Countdown Party at Woodlands,

All I can say it was too bloody amazing,
But bloody unfortunately,

You gotta wait till I have the bloody pictures,
To start off with the bloody details,
On how it went bloody well.


Now now,
Coming to 2010,

I know I had not posted any New Year Resolutions to start with.

But that's fine by me,
All I can say is I just wanna be brighter than ever,

Not just physically,
Not just mentally,

But realistically.

Go figure.


Never would I have thought though,
I had enough courage to actually turn to my ma,
Having tears in my eyes so heavy,
That she actually grabbed my hand tight to console me.

I've admitted my deepest secrets I kept from her,
I was too disturbed, too stressed up,

All I ever wanted on a New Year was to seek forgiveness from her,
For all these things that I've done.

She filled me with warmth,
With words so comforting,

She understood me clearly,
Of all the past worst mistakes I've done,

It was the first in the long run,
I had cried so badly in front of my ma.

But it was worth it,
It was all worth it,

Not only she forgives me,
But she forgives you as well.

And that's the reason why I came up with this entry,

I'm too proud of my ma.

As she is too proud of me.

Thank you for the wake.


There's none other lady I love more than you mother,
Lan